did i...???

well-well...it's another ramadhan passed by. did i succeed through the holy month? i dunno. yeah i got through this year's ramadhan, yeah i feast every-day till the end, yeah gw sholat tiap hari yg almost ga bolong2, yeah gw sholat ied tanpa telat bangun (emang blom tidur sih), yeah i pay zakat fitrah...but...did i reach "fitri"? wallahualam...i absolutely don't know. hopefully...hopefully ALLAH SWT menilai gw "fitri" walaupun tahun ini gw sama sekali nggak sholat tarawih :( (damn me!!!). positive thinking aja lah. at least this ramadhan gw merasa cukup dekat dengan-Nya. walopun almost every day buka puasa dan sahur di sky, tapi entah knapa gw ngrasa nikmat bgt...gw ngrasa tiap hari buka puasa dan sahur di tengah2 keluarga. yeah...positive thinking aja kali ya...and also at least gw ga nglakuin something terrible di bulan suci ini, ga benci sama siapapun, ga marah sama siapapun, ga nyakitin siapapun, pokoknya generally...i'm doing fine kali ya. amiiin....